Day 28: Stay Real

Coronavirus Disease 2019 (COVID-19)

Day 28 of Quarantine: Stay Real

Total cases (US): 560300

Total deaths(US): 22105

I have been having trouble coming up with things to write about on my blog and my mom told me I should be more authentic so I am going to talk about how much Easter sucked. I mean, I am totally ranting and if you don't want to hear the complaints, scroll to the bottom where I turn the lemons into lemonade.🍋

My family and I have been so cooped up and I feel like it all came out yesterday. We were planning on making an Easter brunch but with everyone having gone either back to sleep or into their own world, a family meal nor easter egg hunt seemed fitting. Feeling hungry, I went into the kitchen and decided to make ends meet. I spent about 2 hours making eggs benedict, with a tutorial video of course, and I am extremely proud of how it turned out. Poaching eggs and managing to make hollandaise sauce from scratch is not easy. We did end up having a family breakfast and later did an egg hunt but it went downhill from there. I was very positive and optimistic until about 10:00 and then I joined the madness. Everyone was on each other’s nerves and upset. I was already emotionally exhausted from the cooking and I didn’t want to DO anything. I had tried so hard all morning to stay positive and bring everyone together and I was done!

The hours flew by very quickly and I literally did nothing. We all sat around complaining about not having something to do and then when someone would come up with something, no one wanted to. I did peel some eggs and walked down the driveway but it was really frustrating, especially since I am a "doer."

At 5:00 we were going to seriously lose it! Reed, my mom, and I went on a drive all of the way to Sylvan Lake and it was so nice to get out of the house. Being observant of the simple things on our drive was helpful and made me feel so much better. Later that night, I felt bad about not posting something to my blog and that is when I had the idea to write about my interesting day. As I usually do, I dumped my thoughts down and planned to revise them in the morning. I didn't feel like typing a title so I dragged my fingers across the screen to spell "fdfiekdlasd." Then, instead of pressing save, I hit publish and an email notification was sent to all of my subscribers. I was freaking out and quickly deleted the post but the email was automatic and had already been sent. I was feeling horrible as I watched the number of visitors on my blog increase. So, if you are one of those people who reached the page that said it was missing, I apologize! I had to get away from my computer because my heart was beating very fast and my mind was racing. We ended the night with a hot tub under the stars and howled at the moon but we couldn't hear anyone else doing it so it was a little awkward. I honestly have reached the point where I think this whole quarantine is stupid and I can't tell if people are overreacting. It seems like everyone will get the virus eventually and I can't tell if we are just waiting for a vaccination. It is a confusing and uncontrollable time in my opinion. Quarantine is probably doing something, I just feel deprived of life and don't want to be at home anymore. I miss my friends, my school, and my life.

Now for the positive... I think it is good to feel the lows because you can come out of them feeling healthy, natural, and ready. It is better to really feel an emotion rather than faking it. It's so nice to be healthy, safe, and together. We have to be grateful and when we can't, just be real! This is what I am going to try to work on with my blog. :)

Below are pictures of our drive yesterday.

Stay real,

Ava